Chappy Notepad

I've had it with the living. I really think I am going to kill him this time, even if I technically already did earlier. Moronic idiot. I can't believe some of the things he does.. Does he really think I'm too dense to notice? I lived in his closet for Kami's sake. I probably know him better than he does himself.

I know that if I leave, he'll follow me though. That's the worst part. Maybe, just maybe I don't want him to follow me this time. Maybe I want to leave and just... forget.

But that means he'll follow, and if he follows, Renji will too.

They're both idiotic fools! Do they actually think they need to protect me all the time? I'm not that weak, and I know that niisama is preventing me from moving up in the ranks like I should be. I'm not a seated officer because he is so afraid that I can't do it, and those two raving idiots aren't helping my case at all.

I really think it is time for me to leave here... and not return to my true home either. I overheard about this new place, a place called Rapture, where things can be better than they are here.

I'm going to go there. It can't be much worse than here.

But I will miss him..